quick goodnight thoughts
sometimes life feels like you have so much things flying at you and there is always some thing looming above you that you have to take care of or serious consequences (or something important wont get done) will manifest. But wait, what if its always like that? And what if life is just exhausting and there is barley time to recover. And recover means just some time for yourself, no erands to run, nowhere to be and not necessarily a big vacation. Just a slow day at home. Is that just life? Is it that exhausting? or am I doing something wrong? How are other people handling that shit and have 4 kids at the same time? How tired must these poor people be?? Or perhaps am I just bad at handling stuff and need therapy, because you know, my stress and life handling strategies are not suffiecient. Is it that? I dont really think that. But I am really exhausted. But I have done a lot of big things and all went great, I am in a happy position now. And despite that, there is always something. Something that needs to be taken care of. And dont even get me started on finishing my degree. I am so fucked in that area.
Are people just all feeling that? I would be most do to a certain extend. And most get it done, enough at least. I think the best thing you can do for yourself is spending more time with your thoughts. And there are so many ways of doing that. But looking at a screen watching something wont. And I never feel rested after doing that, unless of course, a real banger piece is enjoyed like the new Cyberpunk series. Be honest with yourself, how much of your daily screentime today was such a prime piece? How much of the rest was absolutly necessary? Perhaps thats where the easy and most can be done to avoid the generel overwhelming baseline the world induces.